the feelings...

I know, this feeling made me stop. It won't let me go any further, staying at the same place, same time, same dimension. I know, although this feeling is still here, it won't change anything. The ending will always be the same no matter how long am I going to keep this feeling. I know, you might be moving forward trying hard to find a secure place, your family is there, always there to support you, you are searching for this, long for this.

I think I just have to put down. I deny this feeling with my mouth, but not with my heart. Still...